The God Wound
For many of us, even the word God feels unsafe.
Not because God is unsafe, but because of what has been done in God’s name.
Organized religion, spiritual abuse, and centuries of distortion have often turned the image of God into something frightening, conditional, or punishing. Instead of an unshakable source of safety and love, many of us were introduced to a God who demanded obedience, who used shame as currency, and who was portrayed through hierarchy and control rather than intimacy and compassion.
But the God wound doesn’t come only from religion. It also arises in the wake of trauma itself. When we endure s3xual assault, violence, womb loss, or birth trauma, it fractures more than the body. It shakes the very foundation of how safe we feel in life. Trauma plants haunting questions in our nervous system: “Am I safe here? Is life trustworthy? If God is good, why did this happen to me?”
This is the God wound…the wound of separation. The rupture that whispers that we are abandoned, unworthy, or cut off from the very Source of life itself.
Psychology of religion shows us that the way we experience caregivers in childhood often shapes how we experience God. If love was inconsistent, absent, or harmful, we may unconsciously expect the same from God. Trauma deepens this fracture, when the body itself is violated, the message becomes, “If I wasn’t protected in my most vulnerable moments, how can I trust that God is safe?”
And when the church or community around us responds with silence, dismissal, or harmful theology (“God willed this” or “It’s your cross to bear”), the wound deepens even more. Instead of finding refuge, many trauma survivors find themselves retraumatized, shamed, or spiritually gaslit.
No wonder so many replace the word God with Universe, Spirit, or Higher Power. For some, this wound makes the word God unbearable. We replace it with words that feel less charged and less tied to religious trauma. For others, the severance runs even deeper, leaving us unable to pray, unable to trust, unable to feel that anything beyond ourselves could ever hold us in love.
But here is the truth I have come to know through my own body and my own womb: It is not God who wounded us. It is humanity’s distortion of God through violence, through abuse of power, and through religion twisted into control that created the fracture.
The womb carries another story. In her innermost chambers, the body listens for what has always been true, that God is not revealed through hierarchy, fear, or shame, but through the living pulse of life itself. In the inhale and exhale of our breath, in the subtle stirring within that reminds us that we are held and we have never been forsaken. This is not a concept for the mind to grasp, but a wisdom the body knows. The innate intelligence of our flesh, our breath, and our womb, attunes us to God in a deeply embodied felt sense way. This is the feminine way of knowing the Divine, through intimacy with life itself.
To heal womb trauma is to heal the God wound.
It is to remember that we are not severed from God and that the covenant of love and belonging was never truly cut, only covered by layers of pain. It is to allow the body to soften enough to trust again…to trust life, to trust love, and to trust that God is not a punisher but a safe warm and guiding presence.
This is the heart of the work I am preparing to share. Not a religious path, but a God led one. A passage for women who have lived through womb centered trauma, who carry the imprints of violation, loss, or rupture, and who long to return to the place where safety, softness, and faith in life can be restored.
The womb is not only where we break. She is also where we are reborn. And through her gates we open to a deepening, a surrender, into a felt sense of safety and divinity within our own form.
The hardest part of trauma is not always what happened. It’s what it made us believe about God.
The God wound convinces us we are unworthy, unsafe, or abandoned.
But beneath the rupture, there is a seed that remembers we are still held.
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